Laura Whitmore has shared on how lockdown helped her to grieve for friend Caroline Flack.
Caroline tragically took her own life in February this year.
And Laura has said that it had been especially hard at the time because her grief had been “so public.”
Lockdown, therefore, gave her the “privacy and time” that she needed.
Chatting to the Women’s Health Going for Goal podcast, Laura said: “I feel it’s OK to grieve privately if you choose to.
“I found it really difficult because it was so public, that’s why lockdown was really great, if I’m honest, because I had that privacy and I had that time.”
She later added: “At the time, I didn’t deal with it because I probably wasn’t in a position where I could because I was still doing Love Island.
“I’ve never lost someone in my group of friends who is so young.
“It’s hard, I’d get tagged in something by a fan account of Caroline and I’ll think it’s Caroline and it’s only now it’s hit me that’s not her.”
And Laura’s also had to cope with a death in the family, after her cousin died of Covid-19.
“It’s been a difficult year for so many and a lot have lost people before their time,” she remarked.
“My cousin passed away of coronavirus during lockdown, he was only in his 40s in Ireland.”
Despite the pandemic throwing all her plans up in the air, Laura also admitted that it’s been “good” for her to stay put for a while.
“I’m that person that doesn’t like to stay still and maybe to my detriment sometimes,” she continued.
“I’ve always got a suitcase and I’m always going somewhere. I’ve been forced to stay still and I think it’s been good for me. My body needed a break badly when March came.
“I was forced to take a break. It has been so, so important for me to deal with a lot of things have happened this year.”
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